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Name: Bill
Birthday: 3/26/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: music. ATHF. Independent thought. legal hallucinogens.
Expertise: guitar, advice (at times), listening.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media
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AIM:  aaa666420
Member Since:
2/18/2004
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| I will be going back to work for RGIS in 4 days. douche-bag mcgee is transfering to texas and no longer has any say in my employability. I have 3 district managers fighting over me (each wants me for his own district) because I have a reputation with the company as being a bad-ass. I will likely be counting in CVS, Target, Westlake, some $ trees, and a few other larger "multiple quantity" stores. I plan on keeping the Gas station job to accent my income, i'll be looking at appx. $450 a week instead of $220-$240. Things are looking up. I'll be able to concentrate on counting and rocking the fuck out instead of supervising stores full of morons. I may even find my way into a training-type niche where I show people how to count faster and help store runners coordinate flows to get better store percentages. all in all it looks to be a hell of a year. | | |
| So i have been having insane dreams for the past i don't know how long. They are pretty much like waking life except that there are more possibilities. last night i dreamed about listening to and playing the song "bleed" by meshuggah. Dad was there, which was interesting; i talked to him about a list of recommended reading and weed and almost played the video for bleed for him. I had gone to a strange walmart like building to start a new job, it was all very strange and the dream concluded with me trying to get to rockfest. There was a lot more to the dream but i can't remember it well enough to tell it without tainting the imagery. suffice it to say that i did not rest as much as i continued to be active in a way that left me sore and tired in the morning. I think I may be on to something. | | |
| It's a new year, a whole new set of changes lie in wait. by the end of this one, the house should be in bethany and my name (meaning that our rent will cost close to half of what it is now). I had fallen 2 months behind on the mortgage and citi-mortgage just told mom that if we make a months payment at the end of january, then they will tack those two months on the end of the loan. so no repossession fears for this guy. hours at the gas station have been nice and steady (about 30 a week) it's quite a change from RGIS, but i like it. I may be getting back with RGIS for their busy season depending on whether or not frederick and kelly can talk douche-bag mcgee into allowing me back. that would do nice things for my income. I still haven't heard word from SI International about doing data entry for them (bummer) but all things occur in their wn time for their own reasons. I can pass a piss test now and thats pretty cool. It's coming up on the 4 month mark of my brand new weed free life. I am semi-proud of the fact that i have quit for my own reasons and been able to stick to it. I quit initially to get the job at SI, but i have sustained just because i want to. It's nice not having to use bethany as memory storage and a point of reference. I can remember distant events better in terms of what and when and why. I usually know where my keys are and what time i have to work as well as what bills are due when (doesn't mean i necessarily pay them when I should but i do remember). I have used cakewalk to remaster "And I" which is a song that i first recorded with Tim Kruse in '04 (5 years ago, oh my god time is moving too fast). I have been working on and off on revising old songs and occasionally popping out new jams. Any day now i will be helping joel take his drum set back up to his moms place so that he can write and practice more often. This works out well because i can then go up to his place and we can work on ideas that have a much better chance of sticking and eventually becoming songs. We are approaching this project a lot like a romantic relationship; we are taking it very sow so that every step is taken correctly in hopes of a perfect result. well... that's '09 so far, more to follow. | | |
| It's about time for my once a year xanga posting. I am discounting the featured question from september in lieu of it being a very short response to a frivolous question. no more 60 hour weeks for me, I quit RGIS and now work at rush hour in raymore. Bethany and I are trying to buy mom's house but due my lack of foresight and lack of a job, there remains a considerable amount of time and effort left to be put into such an endeavor before any results come about. no more pict, zac flaked (who would have ever predicted that? ) and i altogether lost interest in playing 40+ minute free form jazz oddesseys. I have a music myspace up and running the url is www.myspace.com/sacr3dvibrations. Bethany bought me a spiffy new 8 track digital recordinational device so the new material that i have been working on sounds impeccably clear and bright. I have been geeking out hardcore on tech/prog/math metal (meshuggah, veil of maya, buckethead, ion dissonance, and even some angra). most of my time nowadays is spent hatching conspiracy theories, playing guitar, compiling a religion (church of infinite god, look for it in the phonebook in '09), and enjoying the time i get to spend with Bethany (she has moved up to an Area Manager spot in RGIS so she is in the office 9-5 every day and also on call in case of a disaster). I stopped smoking weed, that process was and continues to be loads of fun, there's nothing like suppressing chronic bursts of rage and or depression to keep my mind on the various tasks at hand. Now while I am well aware of the fact that suppressing the secretion of neuropeptides is unhealthy, it is not so much the "emotion" but the actions that would follow said "emotion" that I attempt to keep in check for the safety and well being of others more than for my own "comfort". After researching various religions and ancient civilizations, I have come to the conclusion that aliens are the judeo-christian "Lord God" (do i sound crazy yet? just wait a tick) I anxiously await the day that they will return and wipe mankind from the face of the planet; I know that i am a part of "mankind", but I seriously do not fear death (maybe the pain of dying if the circumstances call for it i.e: being shot in a non-fatal location and bleeding out, car wreck, etc. but certainly not death itself). My first mushroom experience kind of put the whole "death" thing into perspective. well i think i've said enough for a year, mayhaps i will post sooner since there is a sort of anonymity here in xanga that myspace just doesn't afford it's users (thank god for our tendencies to move from one trend to another so obsessively). | | |
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You would lose your mind from the guilt that came from the consequences of the actions (intended and unintended) that people would take while under your control.I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too! | | |
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